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Tuesday, August 21, 2007

8:51PM

I just want what I use to have.

Friday, July 27, 2007

4:17AM

I would like for shitty people and people who dont have their priorities in order to stay the fuck away from me. Just stop talking to me. If everyone else in the world is that cool, then why are we even friends?

Friday, March 23, 2007

2:41AM

Talking to a friend today I realized there really is nothing I can do to make him love me or even like me a quarter of the amount he did her. He is still in love with her its hopelessly obvious and I ignore all the signs. Im in love with someone who wishes I was someone else. Tragic, no?
Everyone seems to find someone good for them, I happen to not be good enough for anyone.

Current mood: exhausted
Current music: Mark Morrison-Return Of The Mack

Saturday, March 17, 2007

5:25AM

that feeling you get when you know they dont like you like "that" anymore. makes me ill. ts almost 6am. im wide awake. i know why its kind of gross that i cant fall asleep this way.i need to get away.

Friday, March 9, 2007

1:05AM

Myspace is going to be the end of me. I thought that I wouldn't have to deal with crazy myspace drama. I thought that he actually loves me enough to not need to talk to anyone else. I guess not. I don't know what else I am supposed to do. I really need to go home for a few days.I feel like shit.

Friday, January 19, 2007

4:07PM

Im so happy for the first time in a long time.

I really cant believe the way somethings are working out.

im such a nerd.

smiling and laughing and rolling around til the sun comes up is amazing.

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

3:28AM - I bet this isnt about who you think it is...

He's gonna hang out with someone from the internet. She's everything I'm not. I am going to wind up breaking my own heart here, no one wants it but i want to give it. I don't get it. I'll keep a stiff upperlip and pretend like the lack of hanging out and actual conversation about things that dont pertain to sketchy subjects doesnt actually bother me.Just like I do with everyother subject or person. I really want to kick my self in the ass for putting myself in this situation.





It's like your fallin in love...
While I just fall apart.

Current mood: crushed

Sunday, December 31, 2006

11:13PM - Happy New Year...

I'm sitting here, home alone. not one soul in the whole world wanted to be with me tonight.
2007 can't possibly be as bad as 2006 was. It may have been the worst year of my life.
I cant even go into it with out tearing up.

Im going to bed...

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

4:19AM - If they dare touch a hair on your head...

Life is weird.
I may be forced to move back to NJ to help my mom out.
I hate school.
I need a job.
My tooth is killing me.
I'm single.
I hate it.
I dont ever go home, ever.
Im consistantly at deans
I think im going to stop celebrating christmas
my mom and bethany came to visit me saturday.
it was the first time i saw bet since high school.
I either never sleep at all or sleep for 18 hours.
im wide awake and its 320am. i have class at 930 im not going
i hgave to finish writing a psych paper.

Current mood: lethargic

Saturday, September 30, 2006

9:23PM - I'm trying to drink away the part of the day That I cannot sleep away...

Philadelphia is killing me. legit.

i was mugged/beaten up last friday.
two black eyes
choke marks
swollen/bruised neck/ear
bruises everywhere


i am dying. you think im kidding give it a month...


With friends like these...who needs enemies...

Thursday, August 17, 2006

11:15AM

my heart hurts so much. Ive never been so humiliated in my whole life. I need a new job and some where to live. please anywhere will do..let me know if anyone knows of nything.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

8:05PM

I worked 37 hours this weekend. I think I may dieeeeee.

I bought the new Jordan 4's yesterday though. Jim went to NINE different store to find a little boys 5. and the box is written on. I was so mad. hah but they are cute.

I am starting to loathe Philadelphia. I wouldnt mind moving any where but here. But school starts soon so I guess Id have to wait until next summer for that to happen. ugh


ps. having an air conditioner that makes it 60 degrees in my living room...AMAZING. ha

Monday, July 10, 2006

6:29PM

went to king of prussia mall today. spent money on stupid shit. got a few awesome things. I want this pair of slip on vans that will match my new stussy shirt. Ordering my door knockers hoops with my name in them. haha(dont worry i hate me me too) and i bought these and a pair of blue camo dunks Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
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(im doing bed laundry)

my actual laundry needs to be done so badly tooo. there are like 23 loads of laundry to do. its retarded.

nap time.

Monday, June 12, 2006

1:27AM

today was my birthday. It was great and I didnt do much of anything. A bunch of people came over and we drank. i loved it.

<3

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

7:02PM

Turns out I didnt have appendicitis, like I had orignally thought. Turns out it could be cysts on my ovaries/uterus. Depending on it all, I could never be able to have children. Kind of a kick in the ass, huh?

I want to go drown myself.


ugh.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

11:45PM - This is for my brother...

A freight train to the right, feeling that sting of pride
It's fucking with me, it's fucking with you
All's fair in love and war until you say it isn't but you're wrong

Words on the back of flyers, my clothes are in the dryer
It means nothing, nothing is changing
La familia is dead and gone, the children grew up and moved on

Is it too much to ask for the things to work out this time?
I'm only asking for what is mine
I wanted everything, I got it and now I'm gonna
Throw it away, I'll throw it away (yeah)

Prime select and a box of glazed, pulling fly-bys on days
When we were young and innocent
Elbow-drop Sundays when Mark Eaton got beat to shit

Laughing at the bands we hate, all the spots we used to skate
They're still there, but we've gone our own ways
I know it's for the best but sometimes I wonder
Will I ever have friends like you again?

Is it too much to ask for the things to work out this time?
I'm only asking for what is mine
I wanted everything, I got it and now I'm gonna
Throw it away, I'll throw it away (yeah)

Is it too much to ask for the things to work out this time?
I'm only asking for what is mine
I wanted everything, I got it and now I'm gonna
Throw it away, I'll throw it away (yeah)

You're gonna drown in the mess you make
Your self-inflicted hate
You turn your back on the friends you lose <<<<<<<<
When they don't follow all your rules

But people are what they wanna be
They're not lemmings to the sea
Maybe it's time you looked at yourself <<<<<<<<<<
And stop blaming life on someone else

Saturday, May 13, 2006

2:29AM

waking up and realizing...
Hey, the last 4 year of my life have been a fucking joke.

Well, it doesnt feel good to the heart.




i need somewhere to go.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

11:19AM

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this is my bedroom wall. It took me forever. but i loveeeeeeeeeeee it

Tuesday, May 9, 2006

1:07AM

excedrin pm's just dont cut it anymore.



I need to get a handle on my temper. There are way too many outbursts and arguments and me losing my mind.

Not enough make up sex or kisses or cuddles or anything.


I want to go home really badly too.

Im really just miserable.

Its all bad thoughts again.

Saturday, May 6, 2006

10:07AM

Jim and i went to dinner at that Steven Star restaurant Jones last night. Then we walked to South Street got coffee. Walked down to Washington Ave bought a bunch of beer, took a cab home and sat in the backyard. We definetly played cards for a while and drank. It was really warm out and nice. Then we went to Franks party. I had a lot of fun. I think we should play cards and drink in the back yard way more often.


Getting my new bike fixed today.

outtttttie5g's
haha

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